Id, Ego, Superego

Freudian psychology: The three levels of the psyche. And so on.

I’ve been exploring my psyche. I think it’s fair to say that in the last year I’ve experienced a little bit of everything. Freud would say that I’m constantly experiencing all of my id, ego, and superego, in a constant struggle for control of my active consciousness. I agree, but I feel I’ve been letting one or the other get a hold of me and take a little more control than I have in the past. Particularly, recently, it has been my Id.

The Id is not a thing to laugh at. Oh no, it is a fickle little bitch (quite like destiny in that sense) that will rear its head and slash with its claws when you are least expecting it. It doesn’t care for consequences. Id only acts. In the Buddhist sense, I think my Id would probably do well, acting only in the moment, but on the contrary, it probably would have a hard time letting go of itself. Egoless, my Id fires shots blindly into my surroundings, not worried about who they hit or the damage they do. My ego takes the hit when it comes to consequences. My superego tries to repair the damage, but the Id is a powerful beast. Id is very intent on destruction.

He has been working long and hard behind my back. Disconnecting things secretly so they could later be found broken. Setting up traps, building snares, waiting, watching, and all the while knowing exactly what he’s doing. The worst part is I think my ego was onto him the whole time, and that little punk didn’t mention it. I guess he thought those traps might not spring. My superego sat by looking at clouds, upwards, not down to the earth, where the real shit was gonna go down.

So they sprung. Destroyed, shattered, annihilated. That little bastard Id did it. Ego blames him, it’s not his fault though, not entirely, there’s two other guys on the hook too, and they know it.

It’s time for Mr. Superego to take control. Really grab the wheel here since he’s been riding in the back looking at the stars for a long time. Too long really. Lets let the guy drive, we’ll even borrow his car. It’s nicer anyway… It might take a little time to teach him to drive stick, but hopefully he will be the best of the three. Superego has a lot of driving to do. Ego rides shotgun. Id in the trunk.

Freudian Radio:

Id: Mars Volta: Frances the Mute (2005)
(tracks listed with titles, and then movements. Each Movement is a track. There are 12 tracks total.)

1. "Cygnus....Vismund Cygnus 13:02"
* I. "Sarcophagi"
* II. "Umbilical Syllables"
* III. "Facilis Descenus Averni"
* IV. "Con Safo""
2. "The Widow" 5:50
3. "L'Via L'Viaquez3" 12:21
4. "Miranda That Ghost Just Isn't Holy Anymore" 13:09
* I. "Vade Mecum"
* II. "Pour Another Icepick"
* III. "Pisacis (Phra-Men-Ma)"
* IV. "Con Safo""
5. "Cassandra Gemini" 32:32
* I. "Tarantism"
* II. "Plant a Nail in the Naval Stream"
* III. "Faminepulse"
* IV. "Multiple Spouse Wounds"
* V. "Sarcophagi""


Ego: The Talking Heads: More Songs About Buildings and Food (1978)

1. "Thank You for Sending Me an Angel" – 2:11
2. "With Our Love" – 3:30
3. "The Good Thing" – 3:03
4. "Warning Sign" – 3:55
5. "The Girls Want to Be With the Girls" – 2:37
6. "Found a Job" – 5:00
7. "Artists Only" (Byrne, Wayne Zieve) – 3:34
8. "I'm Not in Love" – 4:33
9. "Stay Hungry" (Byrne, Chris Frantz) – 2:39
10. "Take Me to the River" (Al Green, Teenie Hodges) – 5:00
11. "The Big Country" – 5:30


Superego: Sound Tribe Sector 9: Artifact (2005)

1. musical story, yes (0:27)
2. Better Day (4:48)
3. By the Morning Sun (3:35)
4. Tokyo (7:02)
5. ARTiFACT (2:11)
6. Native End (4:30)
7. ReEmergence (5:00)
8. Peoples (4:19)
9. GLOgli (5:20)
10. Today (4:21)
11. Tonight the Ocean Swallowed the Moon (2:51)
12. Forest Hu (0:49)
13. Somesing (6:49)
14. Trinocular (4:43)
15. Vibyl (2:59)
16. 8 & a extra (1:28)
17. Possibilities (3:44)
18. Peoples part II (4:02)
19. first mist over Clear Lake (0:55)
20. Music, Us (3:10)

You absolutely must watch Top Gear on BBC

In the last few months I have been introduced to a new television show. Whereas my usual programming fare includes serialized dramas, sitcoms, and generally any other form of narrative production, this one is a little bit different.

Alright its completely different. Its a car show. And it may be the best television show ever made. It is called Top Gear, and it is an inspiring look into the world of cars through the eyes of three british car nerds who somehow, through their celebrity and backing by Britain's major television network, have all the funding and support they need to drive whatever cars they want when they want to, and to do whatever they want with them.

And I mean do everything they want to with them.

Considering the fact that I've owned the same Japanese made 2 door car for the last 10 years, I never considered myself a huge car person. Now I do. I mean I'm not out spending money on a new exhaust or turbo charging my 4-cylinder engine, but I am learning more and more about the art form that goes into producing and driving both high performance and low end consumer grade cars.

In my short experience watching Top Gear, I have seen the hosts (Hammond, James May, and Jeremy) collectively or between them do any number of insane things. Including but not limited to: turning a car into a boat and driving it across the english channel, racing a car against a jet plane, racing a car against a man on a jetpack, racing a car against the Royal Postal Service, Racing a car against a train and a speedboat, and of course turn motorcycles into jetskis. Just to name a few.

Top Gear is on in America on BBC America at 8pm on Mondays, and I recently found season 10 on Instant netflix. It is worth checking out for anyone who is one of these three:

1. A person who drives a car
2. A car
3. A person

And so I don't leave you completely in the dark, here is a video of James May and Hammond turning a cheap European car into a space shuttle.



And of course to go along with that, I have some music. More particularly the exact CD that has been residing in my car for the last few days.

Emancipator: Soon it Will be Cold Enough (2007)


1. Eve (5:43)
2. Soon It Will Be Cold Enough To Build Fires (2:52)
3. First Snow (5:11)
4. Wolf Drawn (3:17)
5. Anthem (5:35)
6. Smoke Signals (3:45)
7. When I Go (5:34)
8. Periscope Up (2:58)
9. With Rainy Eyes (4:58)
10. Good Knight (5:05)
11. Lionheart (6:19)
12. Maps (4:20)
13. Father King (6:09)
14. The Darkest Evening Of The Year (2:19)

http://www.mediafire.com/?yqjfggtgmzm

I'll be honest with you. I don't know a lot about Emancipator, but since being recommended this CD and playing it, I've been unable to stop. It is great music for winter, as the title of the album might suggest. It is saturated with smooth electronic style grooves, mixed with a light jazz and standout vocals and sampling. And yet the album is versatile.

Driving around these last few nights the music has put me in a state of peace and calm, but there is a dirtier side underlying this feeling. There's a little more party in this album than I think it lets on, and its dynamic range is excellent. Overall, I think, a great thing to listen to when you are reading, or getting ready for a big night. I'll be checking out more of their stuff soon.

I successfully avoided Valentines Day

I stumbled across this album recently, and rediscovered how excellent it truly is. I'm not going to ramble much about it right now, hopefully I'll get more enthusiastic about it tomorrow and write a little more. For now I'll just post it and listen to it and enjoy it. I recommend anyone else doing the same.

I can see someone sitting around with his or her significant other, each with a glass of wine, a warm fire burning in the hearth, and dreams of impending sexual debauchery dancing in their heads.

The Life Aquatic Studio Sessions featuring Seu Jorge

1. "Rebel Rebel" – 2:46
2. "Life on Mars?" – 3:29
3. "Astronauta de Mármore (Starman)" – 3:16 (arranged by Nenhum de Nós)
4. "Ziggy Stardust" – 3:41
5. "Lady Stardust" – 3:31
6. "Changes" – 3:40
7. "Oh! You Pretty Things" – 3:32
8. "Rock N' Roll Suicide" – 3:10
9. "Suffragette City" – 3:10
10. "Five Years" – 3:59
11. "Queen Bitch" – 3:42
12. "When I Live My Dream" – 2:55
13. "Quicksand" – 4:35
14. "Team Zissou" – 2:32 (composed by Seu Jorge)

http://www.mediafire.com/?noodnlmzmzj

The Life Aquatic Studio Sessions featuring Seu Jorge is an album by Brazilian musician Seu Jorge. It is a collection of David Bowie songs (plus one original, "Team Zissou") Jorge recorded in Portuguese for the soundtrack to the film The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou.

Five of the covers were featured on the original soundtrack of the film (but were rerecorded for this album), while seven are being released on this album for the first time. The translation to Portuguese is not exact; Seu Jorge maintains the melodies and styles, but often varies the lyrics.

Seu Jorge has gained exposure through his work as an actor and soundtrack composer. He appeared in the critically acclaimed film City of God as Mané Galinha, and then played Pelé Dos Santos in Wes Anderson's The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou, for which he provided much of the soundtrack in the form of Portuguese language cover versions of David Bowie classics.

Music for the Snowpocalypse

The snow melted.

Herbie Hancock and the Headhunters, Which Stage - Bonnaroo, 6/10/05

1. Watermelon Man
2. Safiatu>Frankenstein
3. applause
4. Butterfly
5. applause
6. Stitched Up
7. Spider
8. Chameleon
9. Hang up your Hang ups
10. Band Intros

http://www.mediafire.com/?yxgtnwjutuj

2005 was the hottest Bonnaroo to date (im talking temperature). That plus the insane mud created an environment of much tension needing to be released. Other than the random extreme possibly tornado producing thunderstorms, the humid sweltering heat, and quicksand mud pits, it was a pretty fun time. This afternoon set from Herbie Hancock and the Headhunters was definitely a huge highlight of the weekend. Even John Mayer didn't suck for this one. (Bo Bice would later sit in with Trey Anastasio, and make up for Mayer's failure to suck). I fell in love at this Bonnaroo, and although it did not end with eternal bliss... I will never forget it. But it has nothing to do with John Mayer.

Herbie Hancock’s Headhunters 2005 are:
Teri Lyne Carrington (drums), Kenny Garret (sax), Roy Hargrove (trumpet), Munyungo Jackson (percussion), Lionel Loueke (guitar), John Mayer (guitar), Marcus Miller (bass)

Snow Music

Its snowing in Charleston. Special occasion equals special music.

I recommend:

Headphones
Music Has the Right to Children
Beverage of Choice

Boards of Canada: Music Has the Right to Children

http://www.mediafire.com/?iajnzdtjfoj

1. "Wildlife Analysis"
2. "An Eagle in Your Mind"
3. "The Color of the Fire"
4. "Telephasic Workshop"
5. "Triangles & Rhombuses"
6. "Sixtyten"
7. "Turquoise Hexagon Sun"
8. "Kaini Industries"
9. "Bocuma"
10. "Roygbiv"
11. "Rue the Whirl"
12. "Aquarius"
13. "Olson"
14. "Pete Standing Alone"
15. "Smokes Quantity"
16. "Open the Light"
17. "One Very Important Thought"
18. "Happy Cycling"

Deadwood, South Dakota

Deadwood is a small town located in Lawrence County South Dakota, on the western border of the state. It was settled illegally in the 1870s in a region of land that was granted to Native Americans. When gold was found by General George Custer in the Black hills and valleys in the region, the settlement sprang up, and quickly boomed to a population of 5,000 people within the first years of its establishment. As it was an illegal settlement, and governed initially by no territory or country, it was a lawless place, filled with gold prospectors, twisted businessmen, and general riff raff.


In 2004 HBO, the gods of amazing television productions, took a chance on a TV series based on the history of the town, whose story begins immediately after the defeat of Custer at Little Big Horn. Numerous characters from the history of the old west and the town played key roles in bringing the town to life for audiences. The series explores the development of an isolated social system, in an ungoverned region of what at the time was considered “wilderness”, and the interactions of the people who find themselves torn by a growing sense of community, and the inherent self serving attitudes of a gold rush settlement.

The insane crudeness of the show, including every possible profanity known or ever uttered, as well as the immense dependency on amazing actors to portray true life town members during the time period, really helps to establish Deadwood as a top tier television series that sprang from the mid 2000’s re-serialization of television.

Along with shows like ABC’s Lost, HBO’s Sopranos, Rome, and Six Feet Under, Showtime’s Dexter, and later AMC’s Breaking Bad and Mad Men, Deadwood as a series, really illustrates the depth of story telling, the power of dialogue and the amazing ability and faith a production house has in creating a world that can fully immerse the viewer.

HBO’s productions during the last 10 years stand above and beyond any other network however, due to the limitless possibilities that a non broadcast network offers. The lack of content censorship lets any series produced in the HBO system to push the limits of what is considered “decent” for modern television. Deadwood does not disappoint, dropping every obscenity, scenes of extreme sexual nature, plenty of nudity (male and female), and of course extreme and often disturbingly graphic violence. But it all serves the show so well; I can’t imagine it without it.



David Milch, the creator, executive producer and writer of Deadwood is a dialogue genius. He is a wordsmith that builds character not only through actions, but through the eloquent manipulation of language, varied across every social stratum; with accuracy the modern person can only assume to be authentic. And even if it isn’t authentic, it sure sounds so freaking good.

The true genius of Deadwood is within the synthesis of this craftsmanship. This is a story of expansion, greed, and the lust for wealth and happiness, the true American dream. Individual needs versus the needs of the community, the battle of morality versus the needs to act immoral for the “good of the people”, and most prominently later in the show, the struggle of a community battling the inherent capitalistic tidal wave that washes over what once was a self contained and operating town. The powerful themes of this show not only touch on modern American ideals and beliefs, they make you feel like you are a part of this world, and you know these people. From the dirtiest murdering henchman, to the endlessly moral and bad tempered Sheriff, to the skankiest whore at the whorehouse, after 3 amazing seasons, Deadwood still feels like home.

I highly recommend it to anyone who loves a good story, and doesn’t mind being a little offended.

A little taste of Deadwood:



For those who are concerned with obscenity, here is a website for you to check out before you watch. Beware, this website is a little obscene:

http://www.thewvsr.com/deadwood.htm

And to go along with that, here is some music from Johnny Greenwood:

http://www.mediafire.com/?4acxxxjt1ns

Johnny Greenwood: Bodysong (2003)


1. "Moon Trills"
2. "Moon Mall"
3. "Trench"
4. "Iron Swallow"
5. "Clockwork Tin Soldiers"
6. "Convergence"
7. "Nudnik Headache"
8. "Peartree"
9. "Splitter"
10. "Bode Radio/Glass Light/Broken Hearts"
11. "24 Hour Charleston"
12. "Milky Drops from Heaven"
13. "Tehellet"

More about Johnny Greenwood, from Wikipedia:

Jonathan Richard Guy Greenwood is a BAFTA and Grammy-nominated musician and composer, best known as a member of English alternative rock group Radiohead. Greenwood is a multi-instrumentalist, but serves mainly as a guitarist and keyboard player. He is the younger brother of fellow Radiohead member Colin Greenwood.

In addition to guitar and keyboard, he fluently plays viola, xylophone, glockenspiel, ondes martenot, banjo, harmonica and drums. He also does work on the electronic side of Radiohead, working on computer-generated sounds and sampling. He wrote the soundtracks of the films Bodysong and There Will Be Blood, as well as serving as "composer-in-residence" for the BBC.

"Bodysong" is a 2003 documentary about human life directed by Simon Pummell.

Set it on fire

AMAZING Time lapse video from Brandon Alperin. Watching this inspires me to

A: spend more time enjoying the world.
B: Listen to more Sigur Ros
C: Build the dolly he uses to do those amazing dolly shots

Enjoy

Zoetrope Visions Timelapse Reel from Brandon Alperin on Vimeo.

And, after posting that beautiful synthesis of image and sound, I can't rightly not share this:



http://www.mediafire.com/?du5mnmoxmm2

Sigur Ros: ( )

1. Untitled #1 (a.k.a. "Vaka")
2. Untitled #2 (a.k.a. "Fyrsta")
3. Untitled #3 (a.k.a. "Samskeyti")
4. Untitled #4 (a.k.a. "Njósnavélin")
5. Untitled #5 (a.k.a. "Álafoss")
6. Untitled #6 (a.k.a. "E-Bow")
7. Untitled #7 (a.k.a. "Dauðalagið")
8. Untitled #8 (a.k.a. "Popplagið")

This music is Powerful.

from wikipedia:

( ) (spoken as "Brackets" or "Parentheses") is the third full-length album from Icelandic band Sigur Rós, first released in October 2002. Sigur Rós is an Icelandic post-rock band with melodic, classical, and minimalist elements. The band is known for its ethereal sound and lead singer Jónsi Birgisson's falsetto voice.

All of the lyrics on ( ) are sung in Vonlenska, also known as Hopelandic, a constructed language of nonsense syllables which resembles the phonology of the Icelandic language. It has also been said that the listener is supposed to interpret their own meanings of the lyrics which can then be written in the blank pages in the album booklet.

Aural and Visual

To follow up my welcome post, and as I get this page developed and add interesting things to it, I'll throw in another music link and to practice embedding video, I'm posting a link to the trailer for my most recently released film "Wrench".

Radiohead: Hail to the Thief (2003)

1. "2 + 2 = 5 (The Lukewarm.)"
2. "Sit down. Stand up. (Snakes & Ladders.)"
3. "Sail to the Moon. (Brush the Cobwebs out of the Sky.)"
4. "Backdrifts. (Honeymoon is Over.)"
5. "Go to Sleep. (Little Man being Erased.)"
6. "Where I End and You Begin. (The Sky is Falling in.)"
7. "We suck Young Blood. (Your Time is up.)"
8. "The Gloaming. (Softly Open our Mouths in the Cold.)"
9. "There There. (The Boney King of Nowhere.)"
10. "I will. (No man's Land.)"
11. "A Punchup at a Wedding. (No no no no no no no no.)"
12. "Myxomatosis. (Judge, Jury & Executioner.)"
13. "Scatterbrain. (As Dead as Leaves.)"
14. "A Wolf at the Door. (It Girl. Rag Doll.)"

http://www.mediafire.com/?ojddjmiejfm

Easily one of my top 3 Radiohead albums, and any given day could be my favorite, depending on my mood. I find other fans tend to rank this one pretty low on the totem pole, and I think, had it been arranged differently, it would be better. Individually however, I feel that this exhibits some of Radiohead's most unique and gripping individual tracks. Songs like "Go to Sleep", "2+2=5", and "Sit down, stand up" are rock driven, blended with the electronic influences of earlier albums like Kid A and Amnesiac. However, where the album really shines, is on its deeper cuts, like "Sail to the Moon", and "Where I end and you begin", we blend an enchantingly woven and powerful sound with the intensity and amazing delivery of Yorke's vocals. He sucks you into his realm, and then drives the music into your soul.

A little more about Hail to the Thief, from wikipedia:

Hail to the Thief is the sixth studio album by English alternative rock band Radiohead, released on 9 June 2003. It debuted at number one in the United Kingdom and at number three in the United States, where it sold a greater number of copies in its first week than any of Radiohead's albums to date.

After two Radiohead albums that featured heavily processed vocals, less guitar, and strong influence from experimental electronica and jazz, Hail to the Thief was seen as a slight return to the band's older alternative rock influences, drawing its sound from every era of the band's existence.

Wrench: A short film by Barret B. Burlage and James Edward Tilden

Wrench ~ trailer from Barret B Burlage on Vimeo.

Wrench was shot in April 2009 over 3 days (36 hours approximately). I co-wrote it along with my business partner and good friend Barret B. Burlage, who acted as the cinematographer and Producer, while I directed. It has been accepted to a handful of Film festivals, and Is currently the reason for a huge war in Charleston between local filmmakers, and a tyrannical Theater owner, who is holding our film and others hostage to prevent them from being screened in a more renowned and much better festival.

There will be much more info on that to come I'm sure.

This is just the beginning

Phases. Everything is in phases. Life shifts like the tides over years instead of days, pulled one way or another not by gravity, or celestial entities, but by connections, relationships, the waxing and waning of human interactions.

Small things touch, push, pull, inspire, destroy, fulfill, empty, and revive. Daily I find myself traveling a familiar road, but each new day is just that, new. To keep it fresh, it is important to remember, to reflect, to learn, grow, and understand what you do, why you do it, who you are, and who you will be. All the while keeping the connections you make with the people you know in mind.

This blog is a reflection of those things that push my thoughts, pull my inspirations, create my frustrations, and easy my fulfillment. Film, music, friends, joy, anger, pain, philosophy, and whatever it takes to move forward, learning and growing. Mistakes learned from or repeated; accidental or intentional, shape and mold the sculpture that is our limited being in this world with these people that surrounds us.

Do not fear (he says to himself), this is not simply for self fulfillment. I want to share ideas and thoughts that inspire me, or reflections that have shaped me, to be who I am, and approaches I will take to be who I want to be. Forgive, if you will, my attempt at eloquence, or, if you will, allow it for the sake of the attempt, and the hopefully interesting cadence and meaning that results.

My topics will vary from film to television to music, to angers, pains, joys, and beyond. For now I just introduce the idea of it all, to myself specifically, as I don’t even know where to begin expecting anyone to read or care. However I hope to build this as a therapeutic device to develop a sound mind, to act as a public journal of existence, one which is not veiled by true anonymity, but is however, controlled, and with luck perceived and understood as the truth, witnessed by the eyes ears and more, transferred through the fingers, turned binary, and distributed to the void of endless information.

Tomorrow, or sooner, I will talk about Deadwood; maybe one of the best produced television sagas in the short history of television. But first, I will start with this. This small little diatribe, and post a little music to ease the soul in the interim.

Music of the day (and quite frankly, so far for me, of 2010):

Boards of Canada, Live @ ATP (All Tomorrow's Parties 2001)

This band, for me, are masterminds of sonic landscapes. Their simplicity, downbeat tempos and clever and nostalgic samples are like audio anti-anxiety medicine. They are also the inspiration for the name of this blog, which is named after a Boards of Canada song "Everything you do is a Balloon". It would seem fitting for me to post that song, but for the sake of not doing what is expected, I'll save it for another day. Instead enjoy this live performance, the last live performance the duo has done.

A little more about them, from wikipedia:

Boards of Canada are a Scottish electronic music duo consisting of brothers Mike Sandison and Marcus Eoin. Boards of Canada's music is reminiscent of the warm, analogue sounds of 1970s media and contains themes of childhood, nostalgia and the natural world. Mike and Marcus have mentioned the documentary films of the National Film Board of Canada, from which the group's name is derived, as a source of inspiration.

http://www.mediafire.com/?aymmmt2jgem

1. "Echus" – 6:23
2. Unknown – 7:32
3. "A is to b as b is to c" – 1:26
4. "Sunshine Recorder" – 6:29
5. "Sixtyten" – 5:51
6. Unknown – 1:44
7. Unknown – 8:26
8. "Julie and Candy" – 6:14
9. Unknown – 1:30
10. "Happy Cycling" – 7:55
11. Unknown – 0:46
12. "In a Beautiful Place Out in the Country" – 5:46